Thursday, February 19, 2015

life mottos

I blog at terrible times sometimes, because it's just whenever my brain feels like it would be a great way to declutter and organize some thoughts, and sometimes that is 12:29am (don't tell my mom).. But my heart just felt good about this tonight.

Here I am looking at quote after quote on pinterest because, after a long day, that is quite relaxing (I am such a girl, what can I say) & I decided some of these things just really describe my life quite well. We've been talking a lot about mottos, values, and slogans for companies in my classes -- so if I were to give you 5 mottos of my life right now in this current moment here's what they would be. and that won't be comprehensive, because what in life is actually comprehensive when it comes to feelings and thoughts.


 ^sometimes life has a lot of pressure. & when I say that I mean like a lot a lot. That is all.^




 ^this is just perfect^




Okay so this hair thing. I cut my hair last week pretty short & it's quite 
messy and can I tell you how good I feel about that? Because why should 
my hair be much more put together than my life which is sometimes just a 
whirlwind of emotions & I mean I'm not talking dreadlocks messy here
although (not so) secretly I think dread locks are kind of cool. But I could 
never in a million years rock those...I'll stop now..


& of course for that whirlwind of emotions
comment there's the quote on the left.


^this is just obviously so good, sometimes in the fog of accounting homework it's important to step back and just feel happy about my existence on this beautiful earth^




& a bonus because this quote is just too lovely not to include in a post such as this:



Thursday, January 8, 2015

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4:26 is a very pleasant time.
The weather today was lovely.
& somedays in the midst of the whirlwind that life is
(and it always is)
there is peace.

& when there is peace, I stop. & smile. & just breath it in and out hoping that it can sink into me & stick around, for a long time. Because I know too soon it will be gone and it's such a warm, hopeful, happy feeling.















Friday, January 2, 2015

2015 & All That Jazz.

Happy New Year. Friday. & 2 days until school starts. 

In the spirit of the New Year I just wanted to be honestly quite real. 
I was looking through some old posts and photos of mine on Instagram (c'mon we all do it) & I came across a picture of a pretty location with some nice words as the caption & I distinctly remember that being one of the WORST days. Ever. Seriously it was awful. 
& That picture was taken in the midst of the awfulness, but no one would ever know that.
All of the sudden all of these fragmented thoughts came together and I realized this difference between being positive and not being real. A positive person may acknowledge a problem but put a nice spin on it. Maybe find a silver lining of sorts. <-- (guys, my roommates..!)
BUT if you just ignore completely the huge glaring problem -- that's not real. 

This is not a call to action. I don't want to read about people's problems all day on Instagram. Even positive spins of them. This isn't even a new problem, we all know it goes on. But I'm a pretty real person in real life (again, ask those roommates of mine), & I just want to say we're all allowed to have freaking bad days. Full of anxiety. Full of doubts. Full of guilt, or depression, or frustration, or whatever the heck you are struggling with & that is completely okay. 
I have lots. 
More than I admit to anyone. & We all have different incomparable battles. Maybe full-fledged internal wars. 
But follow me on Instagram (or whatever) and you're not going to know that.

I don't care how lovely your Instagram is
But this new year I'll be real
because I am
& LIFE is
and so are doubts
and so is anxiety
& maybe when we face the reality of that
comparison steals less joy
& we can live in the moment of our well deserved 
happiness.