mismatching.

sometimes I don't quite feel like I fit in

like I don't really belong where I am

but I no longer belong where I'm from

and I'm not quite sure where I am going

so I just try to fit in

I know I'm not supposed to change myself

to fit in with others

maybe I want to change myself

to stand out against others

maybe I just don't know

but I must not forget what things make me unique and what makes me special

this, I've learned, is easier said than done

my roommate is not from Mars!

a few thoughts on this new adventure of college life!

First things first. My roommate is not from MARS. She is a very nice girl named McKall who I get along with quite well. I will admit I had a horrible dream that all of my roommates were insane, BYU was held on mars in a space station, the air was not breathable, and I did not have my own bed. 

BUT! Good news! not only is my roommate not insane, but also the air here is perfectly breathable and the school is not held in a space station. Hallelujah.

As for the loads of homework rumor, it's not a rumor. I have never read so much from a textbook (or should I say 5 textbooks) in my life. But we all make the best of it and so far it's been alright.

Also, that monsoon last night?! (; Lemme tell ya. McKall, Kierra (my other roommate), and I went to the BYU football game at 3 pm to ensure ourselves some good seats. All of the sudden the oceans began pouring from the sky along with incredible wind and we were forced to leave our seats and take cover. 30 minutes later we walked back in, snagged ourselves some even better seats and waited for the game (now 20 minutes late) to begin. We were informed that the game would in fact not begin for another hour or two, so we headed back to our apartment, bundled up, had soup and peppermint tea and went back to the game. Guess who ended up with horrible seats then.Us. 

Fortunately for Kierra and I, we ended up sitting by my dad the second half from the second row right on the 25 yard line. You could say it made the game much more exciting. 

the peace of the gospel.

    You know that person that teases you in just the right way that it annoys you? And they are well aware that it annoys you. But the only reason it does is because they know you, and therefore they know how to push all the right buttons to thoroughly aggravate you.
    There is someone who knows us each very well, he's one of our brothers and he knows just exactly how to get under our skin. He knows how to hurt us and what hurts us. He knows how much we think we can handle, and pushes us right past that. His name is Satan. He is not our friend.

The Gospel of Jesus Christ however provides us with a relief from Satan's constant attack. As our relief society teacher said today "There is peace to be had no matter what is going on in the world: the big final stressing you out, the heart breaking events at home, or the boy who just won't give you the time of day." and as my bishop said, "You may feel anxiety; that will go away. You are in the right place, you are where you are supposed to be." 

Jesus Christ knows us. He knows exactly how we feel, because he's felt it. Literally. The gospel does provide peace. 

Don't give into Satan. Recognize his influences. 
Follow and invite the light of Christ into your life.